Wednesday, October 6, 2010

10.06.10

I have actually been working on the Sketchbook Project sketchbook for the past few weeks most intensely. My theme is, "I'm sorry I forgot you." I have sketched everything but the last two pages. A few months, I wrote a poem based on the theme and began thumbnailing the page layouts. I rebound the book with watercolor paper, then bound a little wee watercolor book to practice with layout and painting. Now, I am finally working on the full piece. I finished mostly sketching it out (except the last two pages, which are mindbogglingly unconducive to illustration.) Anyway, I finally painted the first two sketches. I cannot believe that my lettering still ended up being not straight. I measured, lined, and wrote a sketch under the painting, and still managed to get it all whopperjawed.








Spread one:


 I made your death about me.

My mistakes. 
My karma.
My deflated belly.
My anger.
My dead daughter.
My goddamned fucking grief.






Spread two:

Perhaps the five buck fortuneteller was right.










Aren't you excited to see how it will end?




Here are the original sketches. I was going to insert a fake notebook paper like a little high school poem with doodles on the side, but it didn't seem right. I decided on drawing myself as the only person in the universe, because grief feels so fucking isolating, and having a little person saying, "Are you aiming at me, universe?"

I changed the word psychic to fortune teller, because it seems more mystical and odd.

6 comments:

after iris said...

Oh amazing! I'm starting mine tonight

Rachel said...

wow...LIKE so very much.

Amy said...

Very beautiful and powerful.

(seeing our adoption button at the top of your blog made me smile.... thanks!)

michelle hs said...

i love it! so raw and powerful!

Anonymous said...

Oh I love them! Gorgeous paintings... especially the first one speaks to me (wonder why).

Trulyana said...

Very intricate and beautiful. Looks like there is a lot going on and I wish you well in uncovering more of where you are and how you feel. I am currently doing a Chakra Journeying in my sketchbook, that goes through the different sources of the energy field and then I access each one through the sketchbook. It is very liberating to see what is going on, and unlock the chakras. I hope you continue to enjoy what unfolds. A continuous happy creative every day. :) Lovely to be passing by.